Heartbroken

Wow, it's been such a long time since I've wrote in this. Well maybe it's because my life hasn't been that interesting lately, but now I've got something that I wanna spill the beans out about. I am feeling pretty down in the deep blue ocean right now. It feels horrible. It just happened, I don't know what happened but it did. I fell for one of my closest guy friends, it sounds like the beginning of a wonderful love story, it's not... He was just a normal friend which I would hang out with, talk to every day, share a joke with. But this year, this new "amazing" year of 2012, I don't know... I just somehow fell for him.  I thought it was just a weird crush, that it would go away once I found a cute guy I can day dream about. But i don't know, i see him kinda differently now, i notice when our skins touch, and what his reactions are when we talk. Well now that I know that he likes someone else, i feel really hurt and i know now truly that i did like him, and it wasn't just a temporary crush, it was real. And i just wanna sit in a corner and bawl my eyes out, because it hurts... I've seen my friends cry their hearts out because their crushes have been taken by some other pretty girl, and I've seen them gone through the pain, and I never realized how bad it hurts, when someone you want so bad wants somebody else just as badly. And the world is not fair, you can't get what you want, even though how hard you try, you would just get hurt instead.