Spoilt =?

It was a long time since I've been "pursuing" boys, because for the most of this year, the boys came to me, I'm not sure what they see in me but I was just being myself. But now, I have this guy I like, I'm not sure if he's interested in me, but I have to "pursue" him =) , and I've been spoilt rotten I don't even know if i know how to flirt with guys anymore =) And it's so tiring how you try and try everyday and you wish there was some, just a tiny bit of improvement or sign of him liking you. And for me, I'm used to guys trying to ask me out I forgot how it was the other way round. Trying to make eye contact, trying to talk to him, smiling every time you see him, trying not to act retarded around him, all these stuff you have to consider. I forgot how that feels, that excitement, that butterflies in your stomach, and you just want to scream out loud "LOOK AT ME!!". Liking someone, it is such a frustrating feeling, but there's this sense of happiness whenever he's around, and you say to yourself "ACT COOL", and all you want to do is show him you're better. I wish that I could Google how he feels about me. I wish he would make the first move =)